So it's been revealed to me in the past few...that I am sitting, waiting, wondering. Not sure about where, for what or about what. I can say that it's not a comfortable place to be in and I am seeking. I've been stuffy headed for about a week now and hate it. Today is really bad. Sniffling. Blowing. Eyes bulging and glazed. Hate it. It's also been revealed to me that I really do want someone in my life to share myself with and to share in someone else's life experience. I am in a middle place. Looking forward and back. Needing to move but stuck to the ground. Wanting to create but uninspired. Fortunately I've been in this place before and know that it will change but it's not so fab while here. Today I went to craigslist and looked at the job listings. I have never had a "normal" job as I've said before but am in need of a cash flow. Teaching dance is not something that I am wanting to use to sustain life for my body rebels a bit with every class. My mind needs to step up to the plate and take up the slack. I've used my body to generate income since I was 22 and I am not 22 at the present moment. Good thing is that I am willing to open myself up to possibility and I welcome change. A dear friend of mine has recently made a decision that has caused huge change in her life and although she experienced a rough spot in her transition filled with fear and doubt, she has emerged with a new understanding of herself and a renewed outlook on her life. I have another close friend that is in a similar situation as I. Wanting change, needing to make decisions that will bring huge change to her life. What? Where? When? Now. I am grateful that I am not alone. I have learned over the years that making decisions based on emotions such as fear is not something that is recommended nor brings about healthy change. So I sit. Wait. Seek.
